The Third Side of the Story of Us

There was a time when you came to me. I was your rock, your solid ground when you felt like falling.

There was a time when the light you woke up to was me. Your day started with saying hello to me.

There was a time when missing me felt like missing a lung.

There was a time when you loved me.

What happened?

 

There’s been a third wheel attached to us. But instead of behind us, it took my place. Leaving me trailing behind. Looking at our tracks you couldn’t tell. But seeing the whole picture you could see. You didn’t really care for me.

Now something has stolen my place. It’s dimmed my light so that it seemed brighter. No longer you come to me for stability. No longer are we a pair. You found something else that has changed your life more than I ever could.

If you would think that I’d ask you to give it up, you do not know me at all. I have loved you through it all. And although I saw it take over, I still held on. I held on to you. Thinking that if I just held on, you’d realize that I’ve always been there.

But I will never be there for you if you don’t look for me. So instead of making you miserable, I’m letting you go. Go and feel free to indulge in what really makes you happy. I could never live with myself knowing that I was keeping you from something you love.

I just really hate that the thing taking my place is something so silly. But I do not love it as much as you do. And you do not love me as much as you do it. So I’m putting my foot down and saying that I deserve to be loved as much as I love. Because I would rather fight with you than fall in love with anyone else. But I would never force you to stay with someone you don’t love.

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15 GIFs about hiding depression

These are 15 GIFs that I hope explains why people should keep an open mind about what they say. You never know who is hiding something.

 

  1. “I’m so glad I don’t know what it’s like to have depression, you know?”

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Many people should be happy about this. But it’s very ironic when this topic comes up in conversation and people ask you, thinking you have no idea. It’s almost delightful knowing that you have gotten away with it.

 

2. Finally being alone after going out. 

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I do not like going out often. If I do go out, it’s not willingly. The second I get to escape I finally get to relax. Put down the fake exterior and persona.

 

3. “I just don’t get why people self harm. It’s so stupid.”

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There’s only so many things you can defend with out people catching on. You unwillingly have to agree, but that doesn’t mean you have to say anything. You just hang in there till you can leave.

 

4. “People who say they have depression just need to cheer up and get over themselves.”

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I will be honest, before I dealt with anything like this I had said the same thing. It’s not something that one can just get over. It’s severe and invisible, but it’s there. You can’t tell people about their ignorance though, they will understand some day. When someone they know or love opens up to them, they will understand.

 

5. “Those people just want attention.” 

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When was the last time you saw someone waving their scars around? Or bragging about how many times they forced themselves to starve? It’s not something that people are proud of. It’s not something they want everyone to know about. It’s something that is private and personal. A way for each person to handle the different stress of their lives.

 

6. When someone points out one of your scars and you have to make up some story. 

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Here we go again.

 

7. When someone clearly accepts you lie and moves on. 

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Wait. Really? Are you really going to believe that load of shit? Okay. Fair enough. Moving on.

 

8. “Ew, your music is so emo.”

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You don’t like it you can leave.

 

9. When you’re biting your tongue when you just want to scream.

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So many times.

 

10. Deciding whether or not you should tell someone. 

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There are so many obstacles. What if they hate you? What if they judge you? What if they call you crazy? You know you should tell someone, but you never know who you can trust.

 

11. “You should cover that up, people might think you cut yourself.”

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Yes. I have heard this more than once. Someone believes some bogus story about a faulty belt or an angry cat and then say something like this. What can you do?

 

12. When someone who knows points it out in public. 

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Look, if someone opens up to you, don’t you dare talk about it to anyone else, or in front of anyone else. It’s not your place.

 

13. “I totally get it, I mean I get so depressed after Christmas ends I could die.”

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Yeah, because that is exactly the same thing.

 

14. “Don’t lie to me. I know better.”

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Usually, when someone cares enough, they will figure it out on their own. But there is no denying the terrifying feeling you get when someone says that.

15. When someone is actually there for you.

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These people deserve metals. People who know someones deepest secret, and stays by them and helps them without judging. Seriously, do those people exist? If so, props. You all are amazing.

 

Here’s to all the zeros: Analysis

“Hey kids, do you wanna do what I do?”
Talking to kids asking if they want to be a performer like him.

“I got sick, got kicked out of high school
I guess then, I kind of got arrested
With a car, and a chase, and a drug test”
His explanation of how he got to where he is now. Sick refers to his drug addiction which led to him being kicked out of school.

“These days they don’t want to be near that
Cause if you’re selling records they don’t want to hear that”
‘They’ refers to the music industry. The music industry has moved away from talent, and moved towards image. They don’t want to hear about how your talent came into effect, rather about how ‘cool’ you appear to be.

“Clean cut, we do it like Disney
Well adjusted, trust it, trust me”
Again, the music industry would rather have perfect persona, rather than someone with depth, or history.

“Party anthems get them dancing”
Refers to songs usually done by Ke$ha, and other pop artists.

“Well, I’m the king of second chancing”
He’d rather give someone a second chance than give into popular demand.

“Airbrush shiny, notoriety
They disappeared into the back
To go and get high-dee”
This most likely refers to certain performers who appear squeaky clean, but later everyone finds out how truly messed up they are. (Miley Cyrus, Demi)

“Hey ho, where did all the good go?”
Good: music that actually takes talent to write/sing.

“Baby this is where you’re dead wrong, alright”
Back-tracking a bit here. He’s saying that there is good music out there, but they are being covered up by all the crap the media portrays as ‘good’.

“Hey ho, here’s to all the zeros
And every misfit and all my down and outs”
Here he mentions three things that people tend to assume are describe one group. However, I think he’s talking about a large group of three types of people. Artists get their talents mainly through tough times. They use those times to create amazing things. Painters, photographers, performers, lyricists… I could go on and on. Here are the three I think are being represented.
Zero’s: ‘Losers’/unpopular kids
Misfit’s: Social disorders
Down and out’s: Depression: Van Gogh anyone?

“Hey ho, where did all the good go?

Baby this is where you’re dead wrong, alright
Hey ho, here’s to all the zeros
And every misfit and all my down and outs”

“You don’t sing, you got a young look so
It’s nothing autotune can’t fix though”
Sorry guys, but most of those young singers you love so much couldn’t carry a tune in a bucket. This just reiterates the idea of using image over quality.

“MTV don’t play videos”
Another example of how the industry is changing. No longer do you show what the song truly means, or even an artistic explanation. No, now songs don’t hold very much meaning so there wouldn’t be a point to the videos. If they did show them, they would all be the same.

“And no guitar is allowed on the radio”
So many things are made with computers, it’s almost like they have restricted anything else.

“These days I kind of just pretend so
Guess I don’t mind it just depends though”
Josh is saying that current;y he is pretending to fit in. So even the current song he is singing isn’t really him, just faking.

“Get stuck to every innuendo
But it doesn’t seem to matter in the end so”
He’s used to being called different things, or being connected to different things, but he doesn’t care.

“They say, where’s the next hit baby?
God, how could I top Call Me Maybe?”
1- People don’t care about a single good song. They want a hit. 2-He co-wrote Call Me Maybe.

“Well I’m delirious, she’s bi-curious
Let’s disappear into the back to go and get serious”
I don’t think there is very much meaning here.

“Hey ho, where did all the good go?
Baby this is where you’re dead wrong, alright
Hey ho, here’s to all the zeros
And every misfit and all my down and outs
Hey ho, where did all the good go?
Baby this is where you’re dead wrong, alright
Hey ho, here’s to all the zeros
And every misfit and all my down and outs”

“Hallelujah up for ransom”
People taking profit in things they shouldn’t.

“Cash value for hashtag anthems”
Main shot-out to Instagram. Where people are pain to use certain products, or are paid in reference to how many other people use their hashtag.

“Sing it now

Hallelujah up for ransom
Cash value for hashtag anthems
Hallelujah up for ransom
Cash value for hashtag anthems”

“Where did the rock and roll go?

Hey ho, where did all the good go?
Baby this is where you’re dead wrong, alright
Hey ho, here’s to all the zeros
And every misfit and all my down and outs
Hey ho, where did all the good go?
Baby this is where you’re dead wrong, alright
Hey ho, here’s to all the zeros
And every misfit and all my down and outs

Hey ho, where did all the good go?
Baby this is where you’re dead wrong, alright
Hey ho, here’s to all the zeros
And every misfit and all my down and outs
Hey ho, where did all the good go?
Baby this is where you’re dead wrong, alright
Hey ho, here’s to all the zeros
And every misfit and all my down and outs”